Shower

My fabulous friends threw me a shower. I got much needed boy stuff. I was having such a grand time that I forgot to take pictures. Krista and Destiny really know how to decorate, look at all the cute stuff! Love you guys, and love that I am not still pregnant.

Hopefully I'm Back!

Pregnancy did a number on me this time. Pretty much the only thing I did was be grumpy and miserable. Which makes me really sad because my baby is so stinkin sweet that no grumpniess was needed. Anyway back to the point, I'm ready to catch you up on the last 6 months of our lives. I will try to spread them out so that you won't get too bored with us. Enjoy!!!

Our Sam Sam

This was taken just hours before she died
This is what we buried her with. She loved chocolate cake and butter.
She loved to shred diapers, and eat chips ahoy cookies. A picture of us.

Kevin digging her grave

We each told Sammie why we loved her

Sammies grave

Is still saddens our hearts that our sweet Sammie died. It makes me sad to think that Crew won't get to have Sammie for a buddy. He would have loved having a big sweet dog to pal around with. I won't forget the night that she died. It was late and my doorbell rang, who could that be, a stranger was at my door asking for my help. A dog had been ran over. It was still alive but doing very badly. As I was walking to the back door, I remembered that I had let Sammie out not long ago to go potty. I was saying over and over what if its my dog. As I rounded the corner there on the street my dog laid. I ran to her side she was so hurt she could not move. I sat on the road with her, and watched as she slowly stopped breathing. The stranger that rang my bell had no idea I was the owner of the dog he watched get hit, he felt so sad for me. I was so grateful that he came to my house and that I was able to love my dog as she died. My girls were beside themselves with grief. MaKaya kept saying she was my sister, my sister died. We cried and cried and cried, the stranger cried with us.

One thing I kept worrying about was where to bury her. My great friend Monica has a lot of property in Lake Shore. Early the next morning a very emotional phone call was made asking her if I could bury my dog. Its not every day you ask a friend if you can bury your 100lb dog in their yard. Of course she said yes. I figured the hole would be dug clear back on their property, but as I got to their house Kevin was digging right up close. It still warms my heart to think of the kindness they showed to me and my family. I am surrounded by good people.

School started in the morning, Lexi was late, we had a funeral, and MaKaya couldn't even go she was so upset. We just stayed home and cried. She slept with her collar for days, and wouldn't let me throw the dog hair away that was in my Dyson. Boo still continues to save dog hair she finds. Each time I would come home it was another hole in my heart, because Sammie was always waiting by the door. Sometimes it still catches me off guard that she is not there. I watched a home video today and she was in it. I'm so glad for the time she was ours, and so sad that we didn't have longer. We still love you Sam Sam

Kindergarten

MaKaya loved every minute of Kindergarten, in fact the other day she said, 1st grade is boring, we did so much funner stuff in kindergarten. Mrs. Jenkins was a fabulous teacher, I was able to spend some time in MaKaya's class and I was always very happy with what I saw. You can tell that she loves what she does. It was very emotional for MaKaya to leave kindergarten. She loved her teacher and loved her classmates.

Bear Lake

This is a fitting post, considering this is what I would love to be doing. I am sooooo ready for a fun filled summer. We went on our annual Bear Lake trip. It was wonderful and fantastic and enjoyable and great! I love that week so very much. Savanna fell in love with the water this summer so it was very fun to watch her enjoy herself so mcuh. We have all ready started planning our trip for this summer. I can't wait!!!

Fallen in LOVE

I will blog again someday, but right now I am so smitten with this little guy that little else matters.

We've had birthdays, Halloween, more birthdays, his blessing and much more. One day I will find the time, but for now I'm going to kiss on my baby.

Baby Crew

This is a week before I had him.

Shaun told me my face was filling up with water.
Moments after being born

Tuckered out

His first bath. I love the glove on his arm. It is covering

up his IV

Daddy

Lexi was in love at first sight.

No kids were allowed at the hospital. This is MaKaya's

first time seeing him.

I love these great hospital bed pictures

Daddy and his Boy

He is soooo sweet and loves to cuddle with his mom.

I all ready have a good feeling about this baby of mine. He minds me. I asked him to wait until 36 weeks and he did that exactly. Saturday morning I was feeling a little crampy but whats new I have been feeling crampy for 4 weeks now. The crampiness never left but never got worse. By four o clock I decided to time them and they were 4 minutes apart. I knew I wasn't in labor but I still haven't forgot my labor with the twins, and I did not want to get to the hospital being dilated to a 10. It still kind of scares me. When I arrived at the hospital she checked me and I was still a 2. I have now been a 2 for 4 weeks and have contracted enough to have had 15 babies. I was FRUSTRATED!!! I was fine with not having a baby it was still early, but I was not fine with contracting my guts out and not having anything happen. My nurse told me they would watch me for an hour and then check me again. I knew that I would be going home, my contractions were still coming but no longer hurt. Shaun told me that I would not talk. Shift change happened and my new nurse Debbie came into check me. She said, "oh wow you are a 4+ and really thinned out." I was in shock!!! I looked at Shaun and then at the nurse. I really was in disbelief. She said, "you are staying to have a baby."

They admitted me to my room and I was now a 5+ feeling no pain at all. Not one ounce of pain. Debbie said I needed to get my epidural but I didn't want to get it yet, I needed to be in pain. She explained to me that with the chance I might have to have a c-section again I needed to get that epidural in place just in case. I did as I was told. It was the best epidural I have ever had. I could feel and move my legs. I could feel the tightening of my contractions just no pain. It was amazing.

Things were progressing quite nicely. My birthing party had arrived, and I was ready to get the show on the road. I made it to a 7+ and then stopped doing everything. No contractions, no dialating, no shaking ( I shake really bad during labor). Normally they would give me pitocin but with a previous c-section they won't. I stayed that way for a good hour or so, and then I got a fever. Things weren't looking good, and I did not want another c-section. Then out of nowhere I got a really bad cough. I was gagging I was coughing so hard, and magically I started contracting again.

I wanted Crew to be born on the 3rd and my time was running out. It was 10:30 and I really needed to get down to business. I told Debbie and Sharee (my other nurse, she also took care of baby after he was born) we had a deadline to meet, they probably thought I was crazy, but never let me know that. At 11:45 I was complete. I had 15 minutes to get baby out, and Dr. Young was being paged. I didn't know how I was going to pull this off. At 11:55 I started pushing, that is when I was informed that Crew was posterior ( that is when baby is face up) and that I would likely have to have forceps and that I would not meet my midnight deadline. This was my third posterior baby. Lexi was delivered that way, with forceps, it took 1 1/2 hours of pushing and left me with a horrendous recovery. With MaKaya Dr. Baxter turned her while I pushed. I told Dr. Young this, so he tried turning him. It hurt and was unsuccessful. I told him that I wanted to push and he said okay. I gave it all I had. I could feel my body working pushing this baby out. I didn't want to stop and loose the ground that I had gained, but I was starting to see stars. I took one quick breath and pushed again. And out came my baby boy. Debbie tells me that it is 11:58:59. I made it! My mom still has anxiety thinking about it, she has no idea how my Dr. caught the baby. There was no crowning of the head. All at once all of baby was here! He weighed 6lbs and 15oz and was 20 inches long. Good thing he came 4 weeks early. I was so relieved to have him here and not be pregnant anymore. I cried and cried and cried some more.

I love the feeling you get when you meet your baby. It is so incredible. I am so madly in love with my baby boy that sometimes I feel like I could burst. I wasn't scared to have a boy just not sure what to expect. Oh my gosh I love him!!! He is the sweetest yummiest little thing. I was hoping that I was done having babies but how could I never do this again. Having this sweet angel in my home has got to be what heaven is like.